Raging Homosexuality
Blake West
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24 yrs
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Male
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Homo
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Human
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Desperado
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Played by Kaitlyn
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Rank 1
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Post by Blake West on Nov 17, 2014 22:54:01 GMT -5
A light breeze blew in through the open window, stirring some papers. It felt nice, though it wasn’t like it had been on Earth. Regardless, though, life in the hotel wasn’t bad. It was quiet, for the most part. Most of the action went on two floors down. Blake didn’t even want to know the things that happened around half-past-four every evening, but it always seemed to drift up from that fourth floor. Other than that, and the occasional funky smell lingering in the hallway, there was nothing for Blake to complain about. The place was quiet and peaceful. Until he showed up.
It was always interesting when new people moved into the hotel. There were hundreds, if not thousands, of rooms in the giant building. There were some floors that had no one on them, while others seemed to flock around the fourth floor, most of them disappointed that the 420th room had been taken already. Being on the 6th, Blake honestly didn't expect much traffic. He hated interaction with others and preferred to live in peace. But no, some asshole had to come and decide that living across the hall from him was a good idea. Not only this, but the jerk was loud as fuck and was constantly knocking shit over and blasting music. He couldn't honestly have moved into the apartment that quickly. It was just the other day that Blake had seen a man quickly walk into the room, laden with boxes. Regardless, the loud music resonated down the hallway and caused the redhead to growl under his breath. “What the fuck? Really. A week. That’s all it took. One fucking week and the place goes to shit.”
It hadn't actually even been a full week yet. Three days. Three days of agony and loud noises. Not to mention the funny smells coming from the room. Was that incense? Whoever and whatever this creature was, it was determined to make Blake’s life hell. It was on the fourth night, after a long day doing whatever the fuck it is that Blake does, that he’d had enough of the loud shit. At his breaking point, he was just about to get up and confront the new resident when everything suddenly became quiet. “It’s about goddamn ti-”
“ THREE, IT’S THREE, THREE GET READY! ARE YOU READY MOTHERFUC- ”
“Fucking hell!” Grabbing his pistols with the intent to literally pop a cap in this dick’s ass, Blake stormed from his room and made his way to 699. Raising his fist, he used the butt of the pistol to knock against the door, the force threatening to break the door just so that the pounding could be heard of the music. “Turn that fucking shit down, asshole!
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Post by Lancaster Ryder on Nov 17, 2014 23:13:13 GMT -5
This really fucking sucked.
This really fucking sucked.
Honestly, all Cas wanted was a little him time. Time to process and get used to this new joint, really, was that too much to ask?
Apparently so.
As not even a fucking minute into his song he was RUDELY INTERRUPTED by some asshole banging on HIS FUCKING DOOR.
All he was doing was just minding his own business, chilling in his room. Had some incense burning and everything, having a nice jolly old time with just himself. Even listening to some grade A music, because he is so considerate he was blasting it. But only so everybody else could hear his great tastes in music. Is that so bad? No, no it's not. Cas was jamming out too. Singing along, dancing around, and being careful not to crash into anything like he usually does. The poor guy has two left feet it seemed, plus it didn't help that you couldn't really see the floor anymore, but that's not the point. He had yet to meet his hall mates, not that he particularly wanted to either, considering they were all probably a bunch of fucking jerks. Especially whoever it was that was currently trying to knock his fucking door down. I mean honestly, do people have no fucking manners nowadays? Gosh. What is this world even coming to?
Quite frankly it was a wonder that Cas heard the shouting and the banging in the first place, considering how hard he was jamming. Was doing fucking badass air guitar solos and everything. Belting right along with the lyrics too.
Eh.
Might as well go see what that loud ass motherfucker outside wants, probably to ask him what song that is.
Cas couldn't really hear all that well past the music, his ear drums don't really work too good for some reason, but eh, it's probably normal. Making his way to the door, being very careful not to step on his precious prized possessions on the floor, he opened it just enough to peak his eye through the crack, not really being able to make out any distinguishing features from such a small crack he opened his mouth to greet his neighbor, as politely as he could.
"Yo, what the fuck do you want asshole? You're breaking into my fucking jamming session, like shit man. Don't you have any fucking manners?"
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Raging Homosexuality
Blake West
23
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24 yrs
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Male
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Homo
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Human
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Desperado
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Played by Kaitlyn
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Rank 1
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Post by Blake West on Nov 17, 2014 23:28:36 GMT -5
"Yo, what the fuck do you want asshole? You're breaking into my fucking jamming session, like shit man. Don't you have any fucking manners?"
That voice sounded so familiar. So very familiar, but it was hard for Blake to place it. It made his skin tingle. The voice, the causticity behind those words. Familiar words. They had meaning somewhere. Blake just shoved a hand against the door, pushing just hard enough to keep the other person from slamming it shut. “I want you to turn that shit down, fucktard.” Growling, Blake shoved harder at the door, trying to barge his way into the apartment. It was either the man himself, or the junk that was undoubtedly piled behind the door that caused the object to hardly budge. “Fuck, open up. I’ll go in there and turn the shit off myself!”
It was with another push of the door that Blake saw it, if only a glimpse, before his hand fell and he let the door return to its partially cracked position. He’d seen enough though. Bright blue hair, halfway down the man’s chest. And those eyes. The unforgettable gold that was much too yellow to be normal, set in an angry glare. Images flashed through his mind of a time before this. A time when he was both physically and metaphorically alive. He was laughing, shoving at the other while they spat curses at him. Cursing as the other man whipped him, not for pleasure, but for the sake of taking out anger. Blue hair in the wind, the windows rolled down and the stereo blasting some shitty songs just for the hell of it. Blake stepped back, hands trembling as he holstered his guns. There was no fucking way.
He wanted to believe that it was him. The man he’d once known, loved, on earth. But at the same time, he prayed that it wasn’t Lancaster. As devious and hotheaded as Lancaster was, he didn’t need to be down here. Taking a deep breath to focus, Blake just peeked into the door as best he could, leaning to the side a bit to see better. There weren’t many people with hair that shade, and the eyes were the same he’d remembered. Putting on a gentle smile, one he hardly ever adopted, Blake lowered his voice and hoped he’d be heard over the pounding of the music in the background.
“Cassie?”
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Post by Lancaster Ryder on Nov 18, 2014 0:13:27 GMT -5
What the fuck is this asshole doing? Doesn’t he know how rude it is to try and push someone’s fucking door in? For fucks sake this asshole needs to be taught some goddamn manners. Stepping back to avoid being hit by said door during the onslaught it just started to piss him off more and more. I mean really. Just trying to barge in and fuck up Cas’ shit. Who does he think he is?
With a sharp growl and a quick flick of his wrist in the direction of the stereo he finally turned the damn thing so that it was merely a low hum. Thankfully that it was around that time the asshole stopped fucking with his door and let it fall back to its original position. It was around this time.
This horrible, Excruciating time. That Cas heard. The name. Which with his fucked up eardrums is a miracle in and of itself. Cassie? Oh. Hell. No. There ain’t no way. No. FUCKING. Way. Was Cas going to allow someone call him that, a fucking stranger no less! I mean honestly!
This fucktard is nothing but a stupid ass bitch. Why would you call a big ass fucking man like himself some stupid girly, pussy ass name like fucking CASSIE!
Blugh.
Just saying that name makes his blood fucking. Boil In one fluid motion he strode over to the door and pulled at it with such a force it’s a miracle he didn’t pull the stupid thing off of it’s hinges. Effectively pushing all of his shit out of the way and cramming it in some random corner. Not even stopping to think for a second how a stranger would know not only his name, but the one thing that he can’t stand to be called most. Honestly, the only person who could even get away with that a few times was- “Blake?” Well that shut the raging asshole up pretty fast. In an instant he was transported out of his body, almost as if it was some kind of fucked up out of body experience, back to Earth. With Blake. Not even barely a month ago when they were together. Have a fucking picnic no less. Just. Enjoying each other’s presence. Relaxing, eating fucking McDonalds no less. Which is a wonder didn’t kill them both. When those four little words came out of Blake’s mouth. Those four fucking little words. “Will you…?” Then, he’s back. He’s back to standing in front of Blake, the only person in the world he’s ever been able to stand. To genuinely enjoy the presence of. To… To…. All it takes to finally break him out of his reverie is the choked sob that someone manages to escape his mouth. But he’s not crying. Nope. Cas doesn’t cry. Most especially when it’s about Blake. He didn’t even cry when. When shit happened. He just didn’t do it. So no. His eyes aren’t leaking. And he’s not fucking sobbing. But most definitely he did not just run into said person’s arms and latch onto him tight enough that it almost seemed as if he’d never let go. Not that he’d particularly want to, that is if he was doing those things. Which is, as previously stated, he was not doing. Because Cas doesn’t do that shit. “God fucking dammit Blake I missed you. So-so fucking much…oh my fucking God…” Okay yeah. Maybe he was doing that shit. But still. Only a little.
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Raging Homosexuality
Blake West
23
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24 yrs
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Male
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Homo
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Human
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Desperado
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Played by Kaitlyn
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Rank 1
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Post by Blake West on Nov 18, 2014 0:42:28 GMT -5
He was boiling, Blake could see it, and his chest grew tight with an impending sense of doom. Terror washed over him, and he actually flinched when the man threw open the door. He thought he and Cas… This wasn’t how… No. He was so sorry, he hadn’t meant for this to happen. To find Cas here was already horrible enough, but to find him angry at him was so much worse. He wanted to just hold him again, to remember those precious times they’d had on earth before he’d so foolishly let it all end. He just wanted to turn back the time, back to when things were easier. When he and Cas were happy, not this. He just wan-
“Blake?”
His name fell from those lips so softly, like he’d heard it muttered so long ago in disbelief when he asked. Too bad that dream would never come true. The accident later that month had fucked him up. Fucked him up real hard, hard enough to send him here. He’d gotten his chance to tell Cas he loved him, and all that romantic shit, but he hated himself for being reckless. As bitchy and whiny as Cas was, he didn’t want to leave him alone. On the outside Cas was a badass, but Blake knew on the inside that Lancaster had been torn up. The precious blue-haired man got upset whenever they fought one another, though he’d probably never admit to it. Just like he totally hadn’t cried when Blake asked Cas to marry him. It was those agonizing few seconds while Cas tried to wrap his head around the question that were being relived right now. Blake was scared, and it probably showed on his face.
Lancaster stood still so much longer than Blake was comfortable with. Standing there, emotions unguarded and hands wringing themselves together, the redhead simply waited in out as he chewed on his lip. He was afraid Cas wouldn’t want anything to do with him, this idea stemming from the fact that Blake blamed himself for his death. He shouldn’t have been on the roof in the first place, but it was a peaceful place. A place to get away and smoke by himself. Five stories is a long way to fall. It was actually rather ironic that he was currently located on the 6th floor of the hotel. Fate works in hellish ways.
When Blake zoned back in, he caught a sight he was sure Cas wasn’t supposed to let him see. Tears bubbled up in those clear eyes of his and spilled over the edges. When a sob tore its way from Cas’s lips, Blake rushed forward, meeting Cas as the other threw his arms around Blake.
“God fucking dammit Blake I missed you. So-so fucking much…oh my fucking God…"
Blake just held Cas tighter, rubbing his back in gentle circles as he himself began to cry with relief. He was glad that the hall was empty for the most part. While their display was raw and heartfelt, he really didn’t care for anyone else to walk in on their moment. “Fuck. Cas, I missed you. I’m sorry you were alone.” Blake cut off, his throat tight as he tried to force out the words he’d thought about every day since his death. “What the fuck happened to you? You… Cas you shouldn’t be here.” Realization hit Blake and he clutched Cas tighter. “Cas tell me you didn’t fucking kill yourself. I mean, I know I’m great and all, but please.” Trying to lighten the mood a bit and stop with the waterworks, Blake let out a half-hearted chuckle. “Goddamn idiot. I missed you so fucking much. But seriously. We should go in your room and talk about things before the whole hall hears this shit.”
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Post by Lancaster Ryder on Nov 19, 2014 0:56:06 GMT -5
Oh god Cas missed this. He missed being held so tightly by Blake. Missed his scent, missed his hair, the way his eyes shined. God he even missed Blake’s big ass mouth. Holding him like this, it made it almost feel like nothing had ever changed. Like Blake’s accident had never happened. Like Blake hadn’t…hadn’t. Hadn’t left Cas alone…His throat starts getting even tighter until he can’t even hold it in anymore and he’s just openly sobbing all over Blake’s chest. Making the poor guys shirt all nasty and gross probably. Oh well. Not that Blake doesn’t deserve it. The way he just straight up left Cas all alone. Maybe if they hadn’t had that argument then Blake wouldn’t have ju- No. No. Don’t think about that. Not right now. Not while Blake is here and real and not another stupid figment of his imagination. “ What the fuck happened to you? You… Cas you shouldn’t be here.” Wait….what? “Do….do you mean you don’t want me here? I mean….you did….to get away…uhm….” Looks down just leans his forehead on Blake’s shoulder and tries to not show how much that really hurt him. But of course, it made sense. After all they had just gotten past a big fight when Blake…it made sense. Blake did that to get away didn’t he? Of course he wouldn’t want to see the one he was getting away from…. “ Cas tell me you didn’t fucking kill yourself. I mean, I know I’m great and all, but please." Heh…. “W-what? No….no! I wouldn’t….I mean. I would never have done that….I….I uhm…..well….you remember how you always told me to uhm….pay attention when crossing the street? Uh….well. I kind of…found a shiny half dollar in the middle of the road and a….uh….well I guess it was a bus. I didn’t really see it all that great…I mean…it’s not like it’s a bad thing to kill yourself! I mean….uhm….well okay it kind of is. But you did it and it was extremely bad but it was your choice and I mean if you really wanted to get away from me so bad then I guess it’s my fault and I’m sorry and and…..I know we had a fight but….but I didn’t mean to…to make you….I….I’m so….so sorry.” And he’s rambling. Because he always did that when he was upset, he doesn’t even know half the things he’s saying but he doesn’t care he’s just. So upset about all the horrible things he said to Blake that day and he blames himself because all he doesn’t know about what really happened with Blake. He just assumed that Blake was upset with him that day after the fight and that’s what, both figuratively and literally, pushed him over the edge. It didn’t help matters that Blake was holding onto him so tight that he could barely breathe….not that he really needed to anymore, maybe? Cas never tested out whether or not breathing was still an important thing for him, he imagined it wasn’t but he didn’t really want to take any chances. “Goddamn idiot. I missed you so fucking much. But seriously. We should go in your room and talk about things before the whole hall hears this shit.” So now he’s an idiot again? He always hated when Blake called him that, and if the situation was playing out differently he would have blown up in Blake’s face but….he just couldn’t bring himself to do it. With a nod Cas pushed himself away from Blake. Being careful he stepped back into his room and pressed himself against the wall so Blake could get in. “Uhm….c-come in I guess….” Takes another deep breath and tries to calm the stuttering and the waiver in his voice. Hoping and praying to whatever powers that be that Blake couldn’t hear it. Or that he couldn’t see how badly his hands were shaking as he clasped them together. That would be silly. To show Blake those things. “W-ahem-welcome to my room I guess….it’s not all that great. You can sit wherever. Just. Don’t step on my things."
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Raging Homosexuality
Blake West
23
POSTS
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24 yrs
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Male
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Homo
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Human
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Desperado
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Played by Kaitlyn
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Rank 1
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Post by Blake West on Nov 19, 2014 10:52:30 GMT -5
He wasn’t acting right. Blake glanced down at the very-slightly-shorter man and frowned slightly. What the hell was Cas talking about? Not wanting him there? Of course Blake didn’t want him there, but not for the reasons Cas was probably hung up on. Speaking of being hung up, that was odd. Cas wasn’t normally like that, more mouthy and rude than this. To hear his melancholy words and watch him glance down like that left this empty feeling in Blake’s stomach. Wrapping arms around him, Blake just cooed softly and held him, trying his best to comfort him. This wasn’t how this was supposed to go. They were both supposed to be happy and cheerful, maybe throw some curses at one another, but these feelings and sad words were not what Blake was expecting.
Blake asked him how he kicked the bucket, praying that Cas didn’t do anything stupid. It hadn’t even been two weeks and Lancaster had already showed up in the afterlife, leading Blake to assume the absolute worst. Would Cas have really done that? Blake felt his brow furrow. Of course not, Cas wasn’t that stupid, right? Blake on the other hand, he probably would have. He was already going insane being alone, without the blue-haired demon.
And then. Cas was rambling. He did that when he got all upset, which wasn’t very often. At least not this type of upset. Normally it was anger, which accompanied a long spiel filled with curse words and derogative terms. This wasn’t like that, though. Cas was…sad? He ramble was filled with “uhms” and various pauses. Cas never paused in his speech, he was always spitting the words out faster than his mind could produce them, and was now lost for words. It was actually kind of humorous, the way Cas had died, though also terrible. It created this odd tingling feeling of coldness through his body, but what makes his blood turn to ice is what Cas says after that.
“ it’s not like it’s a bad thing to kill yourself! I mean….uhm….well okay it kind of is. But you did it and it was extremely bad but it was your choice and I mean if you really wanted to get away from me so bad then I guess it’s my fault and I’m sorry and and….“
Blake just stood there, staring at some point behind Cas’s head for a moment before he felt a tear slide down his face. Cas thought that? Cas thought that Blake had killed himself? Over the fight? How long had Cas sat in the darkness of a lonely room and blamed himself for something he didn’t do? Told himself that Blake had killed himself because of him, and apologized to the air a million times over. How many times had Cas cried thinking about it?
Blake just dismissed that topic for a moment. He could explain once they were in the room, where he himself could have his own little breakdown. Before that, though, he mentioned missing Cas, which played out a bit worse than he imagined. It was probably that word, idiot, carelessly tacked to the front of his sentence that did it. Blake felt the cold again, figuratively and mentally, as Cas pushed him away. Blake just let his arms drop and let out a little sigh. This was definitely not how he’d envisioned meeting up with Cas again, and he’d sure dreamed about it every day.
Blake slowly moved forward and entered the room, carefully stepping over the junk that was littered on the floor. Picking his way around some scattered clothing and random food items, Blake made his way to the couch and sat down, moving some magazines from the other cushion while watching Cas. “Come sit down, Cas. There’s a lot I want to talk to you about.” Taking another little breath, pretending he didn’t notice the way Cas was acting. “Lancaster, why do you think I jumped?” He looked up at Cas desperately, his eyes pained as he thought about Cas finding his body, or being told that his boyfriend had been found dead, likely from suicide. “I didn’t, I didn’t jump. I loved you, I still do. I would never… never. It was stupid, the fight, I know. What’s even more stupid is falling off a fucking roof. I don’t even remember it.” Blake sighed and looked down into his lap. “I fell off the roof, Cassie. I’m stupid, remember? You always used to say that, didn’t you? And I let you worry about it. Asshole, huh?” Blake just grinned, a little half-hearted smile in his attempt to lighten the mood. “I missed you so much, Cassie.”
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Post by Lancaster Ryder on Nov 22, 2014 21:41:35 GMT -5
Blake was quiet. He was quiet for so long that Cas was almost sure he’d said the wrong things and messed up any chance at rekindling their relationship that they had. Blake was never this quiet, not matter what was going on, and it scared him. It scared him bad. Not that he would admit that of course, why should he? He shouldn’t, especially since it was probably written all over his face anyway. Cas had really thought he’d screwed everything up, he really did. Until Blake took the step across the threshold and entered his room. Even being careful as to not step on Cas’ “priceless artifacts” even taking such special precautions as to move his “elite reading materials” out of the way so he could sit down, instead of just plain sitting on them. Which would only have bothered Cas slightly. And by slightly he means a lot. With a breath he follows Blake inside, taking special care to softly close the door. Even going out of his way to put the things he shoved away back where they were. It wasn’t like he was stalling or anything, no that would be absurd. He was just. Tidying things up a bit. So what if he was trying to avoid Blake’s eyes, that was a complete and total coincidence right there. Yep. That is definitely what that was. “ Come sit down, Cas. There’s a lot I want to talk to you about." Well shit. There goes any attempt Cas had at trying to stall and not think about things. He was certain that Blake was gonna tell him something That would, iunno, “calm his nerves,” or, “fix things” or even, now this was Cas’ favorite, “smooth things over.” Bleh. He really wasn’t in the right mood for a feelings jam. Even though he was pretty much the one to initiate this development in the first place. Bah. Lame. With a sigh he carefully picks his way across his things to the couch and sits down on the arm of the couch. As if in an attempt to avoid any form of physical contact that he could. Hopefully Blake wouldn’t notice, psh, of course he wouldn’t. Cas is like an unreadable rock. Ain’t no way Blake would be able to tell that anything was out of the ordinary, nope, of course not. It’s not like the past ten minutes or so ever happened right? Right. He was just about to open his mouth to speak up when Blake continued, “ Lancaster, why do you think I jumped?” What? Why? Because the cops had told him so of course, because they had come knocking on the door a few minutes after he had disappeared to tell him that….that. That shit happened. And that it was all Cas’ fault, that they had killed Blake with his words. Okay they didn’t really say all that but it was inferred! The way Blake’s old coworkers looked at him when they gave him the news. It was. It was enough to nearly kill Cas right then and there as well. It was just plain painful. “I didn’t, I didn’t jump. I loved you, I still do. I would never… never. It was stupid, the fight, I know. What’s even more stupid is falling off a fucking roof. I don’t even remember it. I fell off the roof, Cassie. I’m stupid, remember? You always used to say that, didn’t you? And I let you worry about it. Asshole, huh?” Wait. Take it back a bit. Cas was nearly speechless. Blake hadn’t jumped? It wasn’t Cas’ fault? Blake had just…fell? Oh. Oh god. “You…you didn’t? You weren’t trying to get away from me then? You don’t….don’t hate me? I…I didn’t…Oh….oh my god.” For the second time that day Cas is speechless yet again, really it was quite out of character for him to be acting this way. Was strange. But can you blame him? This is some fucked up shit right here yanno? “ I missed you so much, Cassie.” …. For a second his breath hitched. Then the dam broke. “Yes. Yes you are a fucking asshole! Oh my fucking God what kind of fucking idiots falls off a fucking roof? You know that there was such a thing called a guardrail? It’s called holding onto that so you don’t go down five fucking stories onto hard ass concrete! I mean really! One would have thought that you’d had had better sense than to be on the roof on the first fucking place! Or at least so close to the edge that you fall off the damn thing! You could have stayed by the door but nooooooooo that would have made too much sense wouldn’t it of? Oh my fucking god Blake! You have to be the biggest idiot I’ve ever had the misfortune to meet! Oh my fucking. URGH.” With a growl he slips off the arm of the couch and onto the cushion beside Blake. Wrapping him in a tight hug and burying his face in his neck. “I missed you too, so so very much Blakey. You’d better not fucking ever scare me like that again either, or I’ll have your fucking head you got that?”
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Raging Homosexuality
Blake West
23
POSTS
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24 yrs
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Male
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Homo
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Human
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Desperado
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Played by Kaitlyn
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Rank 1
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Post by Blake West on Nov 23, 2014 1:35:31 GMT -5
It was pooling. That sickening feeling you get when you’re being yelled at. He hated it, listening to Cas ramble on about how stupid he had been, to have fallen from a roof. It was more than that, though. Blake had just wanted to get away from everything for a moment and stop fighting and see the world from atop the highest place he could think. It was only five stories, but it felt like many more. He was angry, yeah, but never so much so that he’d think of anything half as stupid as the things Lancaster had dreamed up.
~*~
It was nice atop the building. He could sit and watch everything from his own omniscient point of view, while the wind blew his hair back. The sky above was bright blue, the kind typical of a warm spring afternoon. There were clouds in the sky, casting enough shade on the ground for the sun to be comfortable. It was one of those days. Those nice warm days where you can just watch the clouds all day. Blake was finally able to sit and relax and not worry about the little things. Who did this and who did that wasn’t even important anymore.
The fight was stupid. The two of them had both woken up on the wrong side of the bed and had taken out their frustrations on the other. Blake could hardly even remember why they fought to begin with, but it was something trivial. One of them had probably left the water running, or forgotten to close the refrigerator. From there, it’d escalated to curses and name calling, and from there yelling. Blake had just had to get away. As often as he played the badass cold kid, he wasn’t so very cool underneath. Listening to Cas rant and yell and say terrible things to him snapped something. He didn’t mean to say anything back, especially not anything that would actually hurt Cas in the long run. He’d just wanted it to end, he was tired of arguing. So he ran. Blake was surprised Cas didn’t try to follow him, but he kept going anyway. The roof of the apartment complex had always been his refuge.
It was windy, and Blake was out of it. His eyes were sightless, though his mind painted countless images of Cas. Angry Cas, sad Cas, happy Cas. He didn’t remember moving at all. The next thing he knew, he was leaning on the guardrail, tears in his eyes as he thought about his relationship. He was sick of the arguing. They were supposed to be married, yet all they ever did was bicker and yell at one another. He was then over the rail, teetering for a moment before his feet gave way. Then. He was falling.
The movies portray it all in slow motion, but it wasn’t. It sort of felt that way, falling a good fifty feet, but everything flashed before his eyes. He was with his parents, they were happy. Then he was beaten by them, probably something like breaking a plate. But throughout each flash was a shot of blue. Cas. They were meeting at some sleazy bar, touching, kissing, dating, cuddling. Blake had asked him to marry him. He wanted to apologize. What would Cas think when they found the body? He’d probably-
crunch
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" Oh my fucking god Blake! You have to be the biggest idiot I’ve ever had the misfortune to meet! Oh my fucking. URGH"
No, that was enough of this shit. The waterworks were starting back up, though they were filled with anger more than anything. He didn’t need this asshole to tell him how stupid he was. “Shut up, Lancaster! You have no room to talk, you idiot. Walking out in- omf!?” Caught off guard by the sudden hug, Blake just sat completely still for a moment before wrapping his arms around Cas. “Sorry I made you worry, Princess. Next time I’ll call ahead of time before I fall 50 feet onto the sidewalk. How about yourself though? You’re dead too, yanno?” It came out as a joke, but the serious tone behind the words had to be obvious. You should be alive. How do I know you didn’t pull some shit where you walked out in front of a bus on purpose?”
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tiger blood
Alastor
160
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Alastor
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Incubator
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Played by myself
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Post by Alastor on Nov 23, 2014 22:08:11 GMT -5
RANDOM EVENT! IT'S HAPPENING
Lancaster Ryder finds 20 hacksilver in his pocket. Blake West finds a ball of lint and 5 hacksilver in his.
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Post by Lancaster Ryder on Nov 28, 2014 23:41:35 GMT -5
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" Death is not the greatest loss in life; the greatest loss is what dies inside while you’re still alive. "
Just shut up Blake, please, all of this is just was just a total emotional overload on Cas right now and he didn’t need Blake rambling on about whatever it was that Blake was rambling about. It was just. Too much for the poor blue haired boys psyche at the moment. All he had been wanting for the past week since Blake had been gone was just to hold the man. Bask in the scent and warmth that was just uniquely….Blake. The mushy feely things could just wait couldn’t they? Sure it was Cas that had started the feels session in the first place but now that he knew what he wanted to know he didn’t want to continue the whole, “I promise I didn’t kill myself so I’m gonna cry now” shindig that was currently going on. He didn’t do feelings. Or well he did, but he’d rather not have people around when he was crying his eyes out. It was weird.
Not that Cas felt inclined to move any time soon. This was nice. Comfy. Like nothing had ever happened. Nope. Nothing at all. Totally aren’t dead. Nah. That’s just crazy talk. Can’t be-Oh. Oh Blakes talking again. Great.
“ Sorry I made you worry, Princess. Next time I’ll call ahead of time before I fall 50 feet onto the sidewalk. How about yourself though? You’re dead too, yanno?”
Thank you Blake. Your subtlety is amazing.
“You should be alive. How do I know you didn’t pull some shit where you walked out in front of a bus on purpose?”
Was he really still going on about the suicide thing? Blake never was one to let things go easily, so of course this wouldn’t had been any different. Cas hoped it would have been. So they could just sit around and cuddle. Just do their normal thing and all but noooo, Blakes gotta go and mess everything up. Stupid bish. With a sigh and a shake of his head that, was still buried in Blakes shoulder mind you, he set the record straight. For what he hoped was the last time he would have to do so.
“Blake please, would you shut up about that for just. Iunno. A half second? Geez, we finally see each other again and all you do is whine about something. I mean, I get that you’re all upset or whatever but I’m upset too! You don’t hear me going on about how oh my gosh you must have totally killed yourself when oh wait. You already told me you didn’t. Meh, you did though. That’s the only rational explanation as to why your dead. Because I’m just so great you just couldn’t let me go. I couldn’t by the way, its probably why I died anyway. Too busy thinking about your dead sorry ass than to pay attention to oncoming traffic. But eh. I’m an idiot. I know this. You know this. Everyone in the whole goddamned world fucking knows this! But just. Blake. I didn’t kill myself off okay? I wouldn’t have done that. Or maybe I would have. Who knows. I certainly don’t because I never got the chance to wallow long enough in my own fucking self-pity. But that doesn’t matter. What matters is that I didn’t kill myself okay? I didn’t! I swear on my own fucking grave that I didn’t okay! Just believe me for once!”
He finished his long ramble with a hidden pout and wiggles a bit in his arms. He manages to pull away just enough so that he can look up into Blake’s face without breaking out of the hold and looks at him in the eyes desperately.
“I didn’t kill myself Blake. I promise. Please believe me.”
He just hopes that the words would break through into Blakes hard head somehow, he really didn’t want Blake to keep thinking that he had offed himself. It wasn’t a very nice thing to have assumed about you and he’d rather it stopped.
With a sigh he moves back so his face is buried in Blake’s shoulder, as it was pretty much his most favorite position to be in. Blake had this nice soft shoulder that was just so very comfy to Cas for some reason, who knows. It doesn’t really matter all that much. What does matter is why his pocket suddenly felt a bit weighted down. Pulling away just slightly he reaches a hand down to check his pocket, pulling out some silver, which certainly wasn’t there before, with it.
“Ah? Where did this come from…? Blake? Did you put this in my pocket when I wasn’t looking? I’m not poor yanno. I don’t need your charity.”
With a mildy irritated glance at him he reaches up and pecks his jaw gently and smiles at him softly.
“Thank you though, but really, you didn’t have to sneak me money.”
Tags: Blake WestWordcount: 852 Notes: I fixed the fucking template. And I posted. So stfu Kaitlyn. HP 11/11 MP 14/14 STR 2 END 5 MAG 0 BAR 3 DEX 4 SPD 2
Words: 852 Notes: Fuck Cas and fuck his stupid ass template. I'll fix it later.
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Post by Blake West on Nov 29, 2014 8:48:55 GMT -5
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| Blake listened, let out a little breath as Cas finished up his long little spiel. He hated arguing with Cas, or even just listening to him when he was upset – knowing that he caused the blue haired man the grief. “Cas…” Blake just cleared his throat and pulled Cas closer, relishing in the feel, the scent, the touch of his old…fiancé? Boyfriend? What even were they anymore? “It’s okay… It’s okay, I’m sorry I worried you.” He wasn’t going to ask about Cas walking out in front of the bus. Not now. That was another feely story that he could ask about later. He just hoped Cas didn’t remember it, or the pain that likely followed.
“I believe you, Cas. I’m sorry, okay, fuckass? Shut up, I get it. I get it. You didn’t kill yourself, but you walked out-” He paused again, sighing quietly. He was trying so hard to say what he wanted, but it was all coming out jumbled and rude. What he wanted to say was at the tip of his tongue, but he couldn’t say it. He loved Cas, he loved him so much. Cas had to know, but to say it again would feel out of place. They had things to settle first, and with the fragile air, Blake didn’t want to break what they had just reestablished. “Hey, idiot. Just shut up for a minute and hug me. You always talked too fucking much. I get it, Cassie. I get it, I understand. I lo-” Paling, Blake cut himself off and wrapped his arms around Cas tighter. “I fucking love you, asshole. You goddamn moron, I’m sorry I thought you killed yourself. I just don’t want you here… it’s not great Cas. It’s not fun, it’s hard…. You deserve more.”
Blake stopped before his throat was all closed up and just rested his head atop Cas’s. It was Cas’s standard position to sit in, the one that made him feel most protected. Knowing this, Blake smiled ever so slightly. Cas was scared, he just wanted to be protected from all the scary things Blake was throwing at him. He was beginning to drift into the calm warmth that is being with a lover, when Cas pulled back again. “Fuck, what is it no-?”
Blake just gave him a funny look and sat there for a moment before reaching into his own pocket, extra silver and a little ball of lint falling out. “I didn’t…? Hehe. Silly.” Blake nearly fucking giggled when Cas reached up and kissed his jaw. He always did like it when Cas kissed him in random places. “Well anyway, Mr. Rich. What would you like to do now?”
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Post by Lancaster Ryder on Nov 30, 2014 14:56:56 GMT -5
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" Death is not the greatest loss in life; the greatest loss is what dies inside while you’re still alive. "
What would he like to do now? How was Cas supposed to know? Sure he had worked out a million different things that he had always wanted to do with Blake but for some reason he couldn’t get a single thing to come to him. Honestly all he really wanted to do was to sit around with Blake and cuddle and listen to music. Maybe even watch a movie, it doesn’t matter. He just wants to be next to the red headed man and enjoy his company. Maybe try and make up for the week that they were apart.
It didn’t matter.
With a little sigh he moved to a better sitting position beside him so he could sit beside Blake and still lean on his shoulder. Swinging his feet out to kinda clear away some of the junk that was at their feet he snuggles as close to Blake as was possible without sitting on him and shrugs.
“Iunno. What do you wanna do?”
Grins at him with a wink and snickers a bit at the little inside joke. Saying that was always a surefire way to create a chain of irritation for Blake, they would always go back a forth with that. Only ending when Blake got too irritated to continue and just drag Cas away somewhere. It was always fun. But Cas wasn’t entirely in the mood for it at the moment.
“Heh. Mnn….”
With a pause and click of his tongue to think he finally gets an idea.
“Oh hey, I know! How about we go for a walk or something? Maybe get something to eat? Since I found so much money I’ll even buy you some dinner, okay? Heh. What do you say?”
He even threw in a wink and stuck out his tongue at the man. Truth be told he didn’t really want to go out or anything. He just wanted to hang around with Blake in his nice messy room and be lazy. But it wasn’t his call. He knew how much Blake didn’t like to stay in one place for long periods of time without doing anything so he wouldn’t mind whatever it was that Blake decided they do. For the time being at least.
Tags: Blake WestWordcount: 376 Notes: Iunno what to do now. HP 11/11 MP 14/14 STR 2 END 5 MAG 0 BAR 3 DEX 4 SPD 2
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Post by Blake West on Dec 2, 2014 15:51:20 GMT -5
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| Want to go out? Not really. Blake would have much preferred that they stay inside and just catch up on the time they’d lost. Cas probably felt the same way, Blake assumed. Cas hardly ever wanted to go outside anyway, as if he could even get to the door past his piles of junk. Anyway, it was a day to just sit around. They’d had their share of excitement a few weeks ago in life and Blake was much more content the idea of staying in and relaxing with his boyfriend/fiancé thing. “I’d love to take a walk with you, but how about we stay inside?” Offering Cas a rare smile, Blake ruffled the blue hair atop the man’s hair – knowing Cas would probably grumble a bit at the action. “’We can go have dinner whenever you like, but right now we need to catch up.”
It was true. He wanted to know more about how Cas felt. The fight, however pointless, had blown up what with the events that followed it. Blake had to wonder if they were still on as good of terms as they’d been before the incident. He wanted to ask, but it wasn’t something he felt like he could at the moment. Of course they were good, right? Cas had told him he loved him still, right? That didn’t necessarily mean that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Blake, but it was a start. At least he didn’t hate Blake for jump/falling from that building.
Shaking his head a bit to clear his thoughts, Blake grinned down at Cas. “How about we watch a movie? Like one of those shitty romcoms you complain about. I now you secretly love them.” Laughing, Blake untangled himself from Cas and pushed some stuff out of the way in an effort to get to the television. “Cassie, where even are your dvds? I know you have some, I’ve heard you blaring Frozen from down the hall. Don’t think I couldn’t hear someone singing ‘Let it Go’.” Sticking his tongue out playfully, Blake rifled through a collection of DVDs he found buried beneath a pile of discarded chip bags and old clothing. “How about this? Mulan?” Pushing it into the dvd player, Blake moved back through the little pathway he’d cleared – which seemed to be closing up as if the junk in Cas’s room had a mind of its own – and say back down beside his lover.
Finding a blanket from the floor, one that thankfully wasn’t soiled with anything, Blake threw it on Cas’s head and fumbled for the TV remote. With a few button presses and scrambling to turn down the volume, the movie finally began. “Here we go, a good movie to start the night. Hey, maybe Mulan can teach you how to be a man, Cassie.”
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